Death, Death, Death.

As you all know I am not religious, I have no religion. Still confused why people who profess to believe in a god think that killing other humans is right. But that is not why this post is here. This post is for my death.

As I said before don’t have a religion, but am aware that surviving family and friends will want to mark my passing via burial or cremation. Not fussed what they pick after all the funeral is mainly for those surviving the person they lost.

My only wish is whoever survives me is that they play this exact mix if the tune embedded in this post. No hymns or prayers please.

My Story

Still updating my #SnapChat Story more out of habit than anything. Nobody uses the app with me anymore, used to be the way I got regular updates about my daughter, but that stopped on the day of her 1st Birthday.


Thankful to my grandparents for their sacrifice in fighting for a free world for me. My only war is fighting for access to my daughter. Yes sadly freedom means cruel people get through as well, those that play games and think it’s ok to hurt a father by denying him access to his daughter for no reason but shits and giggles.

A Test

was a lovely day making that special video for my daughters 1st Birthday. Was also praised by her mother for making a sweet video. Oddly a day after her mother cut all communication with me for no reason.

So currently I have no idea when I will see my daughter again. I have sent a letter to the mother asking to put into writing that I am still able to see my daughter, so far no response. My next step is full legal action.

I have been dealing with this oddness for a year now and have come to the end of my tether so enough is enough.

All I ever wanted was the chance to be a proper dad to my daughter, but this cruel person keeps playing games. I want my daughter to know that I love her and will always be there for her despite the actions of her mother.

I can only be the best dad I can be, shame my daughter isn’t getting the full time me, and that’s not my fault.

It started with a pencil

I bought a pencil. I bought a pencil for a reason.

I promised myself if ever I became a parent I’d write and illustrate a book for my child.

I became a parent 5 months ago. Sadly I don’t see my daughter as much as I’d like to. Her mother seems to think that she gets all the action. It’s sad when you’ve done nothing wrong and love your daughter so much and the mother chooses to bin you and your feelings. I wish I were given a choice in the matter but I wasn’t.

So back to to the pencil. My baby, my daughter will have a book written and illustrated by me. I’ll use the pencil and iPad Pro to do it.

I don’t get to be a dad but I will make sure my daughter knows I want nothing more than to be her dad. Shame some people are assholes why would you have a child and keep the dad, who clearly loves her more than his own life away from her??

Any way the book will be awesome.